Being a Parent

I keep thinking just now how children have impacted my life. It just sort of happened that we found out we were going to become a 3. I found out on the 7th of June 1999 that I was "with child!" and I was devestated. It just wasn't what I wanted at that moment in time. But as time went on and my tummy grew and looked nice and neat, I accepted it and started to become excited. I remember in my labour with Eilidh, It was around 4am and my waters had just broke, I kept throwing up and my contractions were intense. I remember leaning over my bed telling David I couldn't do it any more. 3 hours later we had our daughter. She just slipped comfortably into our life and we felt like we'd never been apart. Life was a good as a parent and Eilidh was a joyful happy baby who rarely cried and mostly smiled. Of course we then wanted another child to give Eilidh and sibling and make us a family of 4. That was when it wasn't so easy to have what we wanted and it was 9 months before we found out we would finally have our wish. We were delighted this time. But on Mother's Day when I started bleeding, I was devestated as this was something I really wanted. But fortunately, less than 9 months later again we had a gorgeous baby boy, who was a long delivery but sooooo worth it. Unfortunately Murray wasn't the easy child Eilidh had been and motherhood was no longer the enjoyable experience it once had been.

Things have improved but I laugh at how everything now revolves around them. My job gives me the flexibiilty to be at home or take days off for school trips. My social life usually has to be checked round what my children have planned. Our lives seem to be taken over by shcool things and events such as dance shows.

But I wouldn't change it for the world. I am so blessed to have 2 strong willed children. I am blessed that someone calls me Mummy and that my husband is called Daddy. Many people ache to hold a child of their own and as much as the road has been hard and rocky sometimes, I love being a mummy and feel blessed that I was lucky enough to experience this road and adventure. I feel complete and content and they are growing up so fast. in 10 years time Eilidh could be travelling the world while Murray will just be returning to school after his exams as he has to stay on until Christmas at least. The last 6 months has flown past and it wouldn't surprise me that in what feels like a few moments will be 10 years down the line. Time flies when you are having fun.