Random Mutterings Late at Night.

I have so much swizzling round in my head and I am still awake after 1am. I will be soooooo tired in the morning.

It's been one of those days.... you know the type where you have highs and lows constantly throughout the day. D left at 6am to golf before work. But did he need to make so much noise going out the door that both the children got up? Early start for us all and me knowing full well that the children would soon start on one another. The weather appears to have taken a turn for the horrible way and we have lost the sun. Think it must still think it's December or something. Anyway..... Murray appears upstairs and says "Can I have toast?" "Mmmm !" I reply "Yeah ok but your forgot something." He turns and looks at me astonished that I have said yes "Murray, please would be nice!" He stares at me again "Please mummy can I have toast!" "Yeah I'll do it in a mo!" I hear him approaching Eilidh "She said yes!" he says to her in astonishment. Turns out they were playing dares and Murray had expected a "No" answer. They get on some times but the majority they fight.

Lunch time caused a huge arguement and I regret loosing my temper. But we had lunch. Although I'm still annoyed with O'briens. They wouldn't make me a BLT sandwich as there were prepacked sandwiches but no BLT's. Lazy staff as usual then. Don't know why some of them stand there like Numpties when they honestly do not want to work. Get your fingers out and do some work. Then you probably wouldn't look so miserable.

Had a lazy afternoon and then D arrived home and gave me his wages from the job he'd been doing. So we nipped to the bank. FIL took the kids to woolies and by the time we met them, E age 8 had a mobile phone. M had a Indiana Jones Whip. We ended up our for dinner which was nice.

Feel a bit cheated about something tonight but I know it will just swill about in my head. But my friend Gail has posted about her wedding day and as much as mine was special to me, it just never felt right. I was ready to marry David but I didn't do it the way I wanted to. I spent too much time pleasing other people. I wish I had done it for us instead. I think that would have made the day. We've been married 10 years in October and I can't believe how long it's been. We've been together 11 and a half years. Feels like I've known D all my life.

Something I've been thinking about is that I seem to get a lot of visitors to my blog but only 1 or 2 ever post a comment. I'd love it if more people would just say hello and make me feel like I wasn't talking to myself sometimes. I love reading other people's blogs but am wary off posting a comment incase they don't want me too, but I'd love to hear from you and if I don't already know you, find out how you stumbled across my blog.

Sleep is calling and therefore I bid you good night. Sweet Dreams to you all.